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Because I have more and more things going on in my life, building towards an even busier future. I will be discontinuing this blog and forward it’s content to onsexualpaper.tumblr.com. If you would like please feel free to follow me there.
I have neglected blogging in a way and I feel this is the best way to attend to it again.

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09.06.12 0
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08.11.12 2
Zoom On being blinded of society 
On many days since I was a child I wonder what my life would be like if I was completely ignorant to the media? What kind of burdens would I not have if my parents never taught me self awareness? Sadly more than once I prayed if I could be normal, sadly this prayer was more recent than I’d like to admit. But I asked God why was I not able to choose my family. I have the most non traditional family you can think of born on American soil. I say that because my parents parents trace back right here and I “heard” through the grapevine that we have Native American blood in our veins (I would not be shocked if this is 100% true). 

Day in and day out I’m challenged with simple tasks, ideas, and because of my knowledge of the “truth”. 

Now I put that in quotations only to be safe. Not that I feel my family’s truth is wrong. But people consider the truths about America and this world so many different things. I don’t want to put what I was taught up for debate. Because its not. 

It’s very frustrating for me to be so aware of some topics like racism and inequality in this country. Especially receiving it from the perspective of a man born during The Depression (my father). Than someone who learned about these issues from a book or society because how I see it is a different ball game. I only live in this decade which is a much easier life than of previous ones. I can see and feel so much that has happened before my time and behind closed doors. I sometimes wish I can turn my back and pretend I was never taught a thing. Although I would be ignorant I would definitely be more carefree.

On being blinded of society
On many days since I was a child I wonder what my life would be like if I was completely ignorant to the media? What kind of burdens would I not have if my parents never taught me self awareness? Sadly more than once I prayed if I could be normal, sadly this prayer was more recent than I’d like to admit. But I asked God why was I not able to choose my family. I have the most non traditional family you can think of born on American soil. I say that because my parents parents trace back right here and I “heard” through the grapevine that we have Native American blood in our veins (I would not be shocked if this is 100% true).

Day in and day out I’m challenged with simple tasks, ideas, and because of my knowledge of the “truth”.

Now I put that in quotations only to be safe. Not that I feel my family’s truth is wrong. But people consider the truths about America and this world so many different things. I don’t want to put what I was taught up for debate. Because its not.

It’s very frustrating for me to be so aware of some topics like racism and inequality in this country. Especially receiving it from the perspective of a man born during The Depression (my father). Than someone who learned about these issues from a book or society because how I see it is a different ball game. I only live in this decade which is a much easier life than of previous ones. I can see and feel so much that has happened before my time and behind closed doors. I sometimes wish I can turn my back and pretend I was never taught a thing. Although I would be ignorant I would definitely be more carefree.

06.22.12 2
Zoom
05.22.12 30
Zoom Later I would like to talk much deeper about my discovery and interest in “fashion design”. Specifically because I made it clear through the years how much I despise the fashion world and curl at sewing machines. I have figured it out but I am still walking through this journey so I’m not quit done yet. I would like to express how good it feels to come to a decision. As indecisive as I may not want to admit,it took me awhile to figure out exactly what I wanted to go to school for.  I knew what I loved and I had too many hobbies to count. I couldn’t figure out how to interchange them all in one shot. I didn’t know where to start because all my hobbies had a dominant filed to it that could carry its own weight.
It was when I began making accessories that it became clear to me that I have a special way of thinking. Not only do I need to challenge this but I need to find the people who will allow this to happen. Damn how in the hell am I going to do that. I have the puzzle pieces I just can’t figure out the bigger picture. Which was how can I transfer all my wonderful goals and ideas into a successful career.
To make things simple I always disregarded money (for the most part). It never occurred to me that I would have a problem making money. There are some people who are destined to win and luckily for me I have parents who taught this to me.  I would only add another life time of puzzles if I tried to integrate the things that excite me-with money. Sometimes there is no way to mesh the two.
In the event that I came to an epiphany that I had to be my own boss. Instantly I knew I needed to go to school for art and business. There are so many crazy things that go on in my head I would love to bring them out within this lifetime. Its beautiful to discover a fracture of your life that’s been waiting to be brought to your attention. This small piece answers so many questions which ultimately opens doors and closes a few to some unsolved mysteries. That is what I am going through right now and its wonderful. It feels good to be back in school and I varied size puzzle pieces to lighten my load. I have found the missing pieces in my closet and I’m going to hold onto them tightly.

Later I would like to talk much deeper about my discovery and interest in “fashion design”. Specifically because I made it clear through the years how much I despise the fashion world and curl at sewing machines. I have figured it out but I am still walking through this journey so I’m not quit done yet. I would like to express how good it feels to come to a decision. As indecisive as I may not want to admit,it took me awhile to figure out exactly what I wanted to go to school for.  I knew what I loved and I had too many hobbies to count. I couldn’t figure out how to interchange them all in one shot. I didn’t know where to start because all my hobbies had a dominant filed to it that could carry its own weight.

It was when I began making accessories that it became clear to me that I have a special way of thinking. Not only do I need to challenge this but I need to find the people who will allow this to happen. Damn how in the hell am I going to do that. I have the puzzle pieces I just can’t figure out the bigger picture. Which was how can I transfer all my wonderful goals and ideas into a successful career.

To make things simple I always disregarded money (for the most part). It never occurred to me that I would have a problem making money. There are some people who are destined to win and luckily for me I have parents who taught this to me.  I would only add another life time of puzzles if I tried to integrate the things that excite me-with money. Sometimes there is no way to mesh the two.

In the event that I came to an epiphany that I had to be my own boss. Instantly I knew I needed to go to school for art and business. There are so many crazy things that go on in my head I would love to bring them out within this lifetime. Its beautiful to discover a fracture of your life that’s been waiting to be brought to your attention. This small piece answers so many questions which ultimately opens doors and closes a few to some unsolved mysteries. That is what I am going through right now and its wonderful. It feels good to be back in school and I varied size puzzle pieces to lighten my load. I have found the missing pieces in my closet and I’m going to hold onto them tightly.

01.18.12 19
Zoom Last month I wrote breifly about my new found "loneliness" of living on my own. Which is what many would refer to me being alone day in and day out with no computer,television, or company. I of course don’t limit loneliness to those few fators. I am alone but not exactly lonely. It is in fact one of the most amazing things I have ever experienced. I have choices and the option to surround myself with people I enjoy. I am not in the company of most by default. I have the opportunity to breath and think within my own space, without the disruption of anothers presence. I was beginning to think I was anti-social and in denial. I was so easily annoyed with my family member’s presence and I was getting sick to my stomach of children running around.
But being alone has given me a clear persepctive on what I really needed. The idea of no one around to slice through my thought process before I even get a chance to complete one; is just…There are no words to describe how amazing I feel to be alone. I have a big family that I can not escape if I tried, they will always love and care for me through thick and thin. I have recognized that as a beautiful quality that I should appreciate. Its just I need my space. I have always made a point to seperate myself to my sanctuary; which was whatever space that I called my own at the time. I tried to do what I could to collect myself before I got short with the next person. But it never happened, I never got the time to myself to get a breather. It was family time all the time.
Luckily before I did explode I finally have that time and space I wanted. It gives me the opportunity to humble myself and think before I act. Its a blessing to have a family to call your own I’m aware of this. But Im glad I’m able to remove myself from whatever circumstance I can’t control when it comes to family. I now understand that I need to take control of my own life before I try to heed on the burdens of others.

Last month I wrote breifly about my new found "loneliness" of living on my own. Which is what many would refer to me being alone day in and day out with no computer,television, or company. I of course don’t limit loneliness to those few fators. I am alone but not exactly lonely. It is in fact one of the most amazing things I have ever experienced. I have choices and the option to surround myself with people I enjoy. I am not in the company of most by default. I have the opportunity to breath and think within my own space, without the disruption of anothers presence. I was beginning to think I was anti-social and in denial. I was so easily annoyed with my family member’s presence and I was getting sick to my stomach of children running around.

But being alone has given me a clear persepctive on what I really needed. The idea of no one around to slice through my thought process before I even get a chance to complete one; is just…There are no words to describe how amazing I feel to be alone. I have a big family that I can not escape if I tried, they will always love and care for me through thick and thin. I have recognized that as a beautiful quality that I should appreciate. Its just I need my space. I have always made a point to seperate myself to my sanctuary; which was whatever space that I called my own at the time. I tried to do what I could to collect myself before I got short with the next person. But it never happened, I never got the time to myself to get a breather. It was family time all the time.

Luckily before I did explode I finally have that time and space I wanted. It gives me the opportunity to humble myself and think before I act. Its a blessing to have a family to call your own I’m aware of this. But Im glad I’m able to remove myself from whatever circumstance I can’t control when it comes to family. I now understand that I need to take control of my own life before I try to heed on the burdens of others.

01.14.12 81
Zoom  
My (effective) 28 ways of staying creative
 1. Eat candy bars 2. Sort through a pile of old photos 3. Organize your recent pile of paperwork 4. Make a page in your scrapbook 5. Catch up with an old friend 6. Search through a friends FB photos (I have found this to be less creepy but more inspiring) 7. Look at your own FB photos 8. Make a video about your day/weekend 9. Pull out your glue and do an art project 10. Dye/rinse your hair 11. Change your hairstyle/get a haircut 12. Play dress up 13. Tie dye an old pair of jeans 14. Relax and organize your thoughts 15. Make a pair of earrings for yourself 16. Write in your diary 17. Read an old children’s book 18. Visit a historical monument 19. Pull out your thread and needle and make a shirt or skirt (this will probably take all day but are for people like me who hate sewing machines) 20. Set you clothes out for the next week 21. Sell something on craigslist or eBay 22. Have a yard sale 23. Have a photo shoot in your kitchen 24. Paint a room a vibrant color 25. Play in a children’s park 26. Network at a festival or trunk show 27. Practice using photoshop 28. Write a short story 

This list was generated after reading “”33 ways to stay creative”. I decided I wanted to make a list based off of my realistic comings and goings. These are things that I’m most likely going to do. I read over them and really thought I should share. I know there is someone out there who, like me, is suffering from “in home syndrome” and finds time to never leave the house. It happens at different times of our lives. I am in the middle of a move so I am doing a lot of waiting. It’s sickening how much time we waist inside doing the same ole. During this its like time is dragging along and we are waiting for something to happen. While our mind is in a scramble we should take advantage and get creative. Because you never know it might actually get you off the computer and out of the house.

My (effective) 28 ways of staying creative

1. Eat candy bars 2. Sort through a pile of old photos 3. Organize your recent pile of paperwork 4. Make a page in your scrapbook 5. Catch up with an old friend 6. Search through a friends FB photos (I have found this to be less creepy but more inspiring) 7. Look at your own FB photos 8. Make a video about your day/weekend 9. Pull out your glue and do an art project 10. Dye/rinse your hair 11. Change your hairstyle/get a haircut 12. Play dress up 13. Tie dye an old pair of jeans 14. Relax and organize your thoughts 15. Make a pair of earrings for yourself 16. Write in your diary 17. Read an old children’s book 18. Visit a historical monument 19. Pull out your thread and needle and make a shirt or skirt (this will probably take all day but are for people like me who hate sewing machines) 20. Set you clothes out for the next week 21. Sell something on craigslist or eBay 22. Have a yard sale 23. Have a photo shoot in your kitchen 24. Paint a room a vibrant color 25. Play in a children’s park 26. Network at a festival or trunk show 27. Practice using photoshop 28. Write a short story

This list was generated after reading “”33 ways to stay creative”. I decided I wanted to make a list based off of my realistic comings and goings. These are things that I’m most likely going to do. I read over them and really thought I should share. I know there is someone out there who, like me, is suffering from “in home syndrome” and finds time to never leave the house. It happens at different times of our lives. I am in the middle of a move so I am doing a lot of waiting. It’s sickening how much time we waist inside doing the same ole. During this its like time is dragging along and we are waiting for something to happen. While our mind is in a scramble we should take advantage and get creative. Because you never know it might actually get you off the computer and out of the house.

10.19.11 34
Zoom 
Its interesting to watch yourself transform and grow through a relationship. It can also be comical to be quoted on constantly. I have had to go back on my words and actions so many times to count, because of my real progression in opinions and outlooks. To compare what I thought and felt in the beginning of my relationship to now is almost laughable. But much more interesting as I stated to be able to take note of my growth through my relationship.
I was always one to read magazines and plenty online articles. I was obsessed with being a “good girlfriend” and perfect lover. I was all about preparing myself and being ahead of the game. Little did I know that my fathers teachings and my own vigorous research was no preparation for what I actual undertook for 4 years.
I became more familiar with the Nigerian culture after I fell madly in love with my partner Shola. It never dawned across me until after I realized I couldn’t live without this person that I couldn’t possibly love this person without loving every thing that had to do with them. Including their family and background. In the beginning it was more of a I-need-to-get-by and generally I wasn’t yet interested in where he came from. But what happens when you grow with someone you are forced to intertwine who they really are; their culture especially. Of course you are not obliged to take on anyone’s lifestyle especially when its by force. But what I grew to learn is that when you REALLY love someone you want to be apart of everything that has to do with them. Ultimately it will bring you closer and extend your knowledge of what love really is. I on the other hand have the honor of learning  a whole language with out classes or having to travel to another country. That in itself is a blessing (I realized much later on).
Here I am extremely welcoming and open to another’s life because I am that in-tuned with them. Its beautiful. I do have to thank my dad for being there and Cosmo for preparing me for the insignificant  things that I would have learned on my own anyway. I must say there is nothing like actually going through it and not reading how to go through it. Its amazing and something I would not trade in for the world.

Its interesting to watch yourself transform and grow through a relationship. It can also be comical to be quoted on constantly. I have had to go back on my words and actions so many times to count, because of my real progression in opinions and outlooks. To compare what I thought and felt in the beginning of my relationship to now is almost laughable. But much more interesting as I stated to be able to take note of my growth through my relationship.

I was always one to read magazines and plenty online articles. I was obsessed with being a “good girlfriend” and perfect lover. I was all about preparing myself and being ahead of the game. Little did I know that my fathers teachings and my own vigorous research was no preparation for what I actual undertook for 4 years.

I became more familiar with the Nigerian culture after I fell madly in love with my partner Shola. It never dawned across me until after I realized I couldn’t live without this person that I couldn’t possibly love this person without loving every thing that had to do with them. Including their family and background. In the beginning it was more of a I-need-to-get-by and generally I wasn’t yet interested in where he came from. But what happens when you grow with someone you are forced to intertwine who they really are; their culture especially. Of course you are not obliged to take on anyone’s lifestyle especially when its by force. But what I grew to learn is that when you REALLY love someone you want to be apart of everything that has to do with them. Ultimately it will bring you closer and extend your knowledge of what love really is. I on the other hand have the honor of learning  a whole language with out classes or having to travel to another country. That in itself is a blessing (I realized much later on).

Here I am extremely welcoming and open to another’s life because I am that in-tuned with them. Its beautiful. I do have to thank my dad for being there and Cosmo for preparing me for the insignificant  things that I would have learned on my own anyway. I must say there is nothing like actually going through it and not reading how to go through it. Its amazing and something I would not trade in for the world.

10.11.11 40
Zoom
08.13.11 1
Zoom I’m excited to be able to deliver this news because its a secret I’ve kept in. Cosmetic companys won’t pitch it to you because that’s the key to your business. But I discovered it a lonnnng time ago. I also picked it up as a young girl who honors her mother and growing (unfortunately) to be just like her. It’s not the biggest revelation but its one that will probably help MOST females who fell in love with make-up.
My mother is turning 57 in December and her skin I must say is flawless. Although she could probably get her eyebrows waxed to help her out. Her skin alone has always been close to perfect. Not to mention the jump start she has being a member of the melanin family. She is aging gracefully so its kind of unfair.
But one of the biggest secrets we’ve kept as the Davis family that keeps our skin glowing…Is the amount of make-up we use. The percentage starts at 0-30%. In terms of the basics (eye liner,mascara) we used little to no foundation/concealer. That will and is the key to keeping your skin fresh. There is not one moisturize or face primer in the world that can prevent the inevitable damage that gunk will cause. Nothing. The sooner you become comfortable with your heat bumps,random scars, natural skin tone ,etc. You will make your life easier. We are human beings, we are not suppose to look like porcelain dolls in the morning. If you feel like you have bad skin I can guarantee it that applying a flew layers will not make it any better.
So please ladies fall in love with natural beauty again we can’t always be “camera ready”.

I’m excited to be able to deliver this news because its a secret I’ve kept in. Cosmetic companys won’t pitch it to you because that’s the key to your business. But I discovered it a lonnnng time ago. I also picked it up as a young girl who honors her mother and growing (unfortunately) to be just like her. It’s not the biggest revelation but its one that will probably help MOST females who fell in love with make-up.

My mother is turning 57 in December and her skin I must say is flawless. Although she could probably get her eyebrows waxed to help her out. Her skin alone has always been close to perfect. Not to mention the jump start she has being a member of the melanin family. She is aging gracefully so its kind of unfair.

But one of the biggest secrets we’ve kept as the Davis family that keeps our skin glowing…Is the amount of make-up we use. The percentage starts at 0-30%. In terms of the basics (eye liner,mascara) we used little to no foundation/concealer. That will and is the key to keeping your skin fresh. There is not one moisturize or face primer in the world that can prevent the inevitable damage that gunk will cause. Nothing. The sooner you become comfortable with your heat bumps,random scars, natural skin tone ,etc. You will make your life easier. We are human beings, we are not suppose to look like porcelain dolls in the morning. If you feel like you have bad skin I can guarantee it that applying a flew layers will not make it any better.

So please ladies fall in love with natural beauty again we can’t always be “camera ready”.

08.06.11 4