Later I would like to talk much deeper about my discovery and interest in “fashion design”. Specifically because I made it clear through the years how much I despise the fashion world and curl at sewing machines. I have figured it out but I am still walking through this journey so I’m not quit done yet. I would like to express how good it feels to come to a decision. As indecisive as I may not want to admit,it took me awhile to figure out exactly what I wanted to go to school for. I knew what I loved and I had too many hobbies to count. I couldn’t figure out how to interchange them all in one shot. I didn’t know where to start because all my hobbies had a dominant filed to it that could carry its own weight.
It was when I began making accessories that it became clear to me that I have a special way of thinking. Not only do I need to challenge this but I need to find the people who will allow this to happen. Damn how in the hell am I going to do that. I have the puzzle pieces I just can’t figure out the bigger picture. Which was how can I transfer all my wonderful goals and ideas into a successful career.
To make things simple I always disregarded money (for the most part). It never occurred to me that I would have a problem making money. There are some people who are destined to win and luckily for me I have parents who taught this to me. I would only add another life time of puzzles if I tried to integrate the things that excite me-with money. Sometimes there is no way to mesh the two.
In the event that I came to an epiphany that I had to be my own boss. Instantly I knew I needed to go to school for art and business. There are so many crazy things that go on in my head I would love to bring them out within this lifetime. Its beautiful to discover a fracture of your life that’s been waiting to be brought to your attention. This small piece answers so many questions which ultimately opens doors and closes a few to some unsolved mysteries. That is what I am going through right now and its wonderful. It feels good to be back in school and I varied size puzzle pieces to lighten my load. I have found the missing pieces in my closet and I’m going to hold onto them tightly.
