I wish there was a way of raising my children in America and being able to modify the things they learn from living in this country. Obviously that is suppose to be up to me; what I allow them to watch, where I allow them to go, and who they hang with. But really there doesn’t seem to be a way to get around how messed up this country is. The only solution is to raise your children some place else or lock them inside. OR you can move far away. Compared to others we have it good and are living it up, I do know this. But there is something about the propaganda that scares the living daylights out of me and has me worried for my future children. What do we have to look forward to in the future because it only looks like things are getting worst. The way everything is being shaped it makes me believe that I am not meant to live on planet earth all together. It is becoming harder and harder to live in this country and not only as a black women but as a human being. I feel like I am being set up for failure and not success. I feel like I am being pushed out by my own government. I don’t feel exactly safe and secure in my own home. The news and newspapers address issues like I should be scared for my life. I can not stand how the media portrays life itself and acts as an entertainment slot than the informational and resourceful tool that it’s suppose to be.
As I’m getting older I am learning about using current events to my advantage to make a living. For example I have cut my hair for 2 major reasons 1: I have wanted to cut my hair off since I was 14 AND two:natural hair is a big thing and will help me excel my small business. I have always considered myself a natural because I never did wear weave, fake nails, and make-up. It has always been a thing for me to not wear perfume and stick with my natural scent, stay true to my style, and be me no matter what. I had promoted and boasted about being natural since I can remember so when I cut my hair I felt regular. My decision to do it so soon was because I needed/wanted to take advantage of the ever revolution and trend of black women rocking their natural hair textures. It was something I would have never done a few years ago because of the fear of me being viewed as a copy. My mother always taught me to try and never care what people think because even if they told you, you still won’t know exactly what they are thinking.
But from my day to day living I don’t see how my future seeds will make a living. Of-course if they are a part of my family tree they will probably be successful artists or anything of a powerful activists or bulldog. There are no failures in my family so I don’t expect them to fail at what they strive to do. But my concerns are how hard it will be for them to make a living in this country as human beings. I am not confident in our amendments. I am not confident that our newer laws will hold my sons and daughters down when they decide to get ahead in life. I feel a bad turn coming and a WWW V as a follow-up. Even if after I have made my hit in life and settled with my babies (6-8) and a war has never been declared. I will know based my children’s hardships if life is any easier for them than it was for my parents and their parents.
